How narrow minded your own thoughts can be? for so long you can believe a certain thing or a certain way, then all of the sudden life swings back around and you're flipped on your ass. As you stand and brush yourself off, you realize how little you really knew and how far off you were.
I thank the universe when it flips me upside down right when i'm ready for it though. Usually the timing is way off.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
$1.50, really??
Okay so before I moved into my new apartment, I had a hard time washing my clothes more than once a month.. something that many fellow Americans view as "disgusting". I however like to not waste energy and water by washing, and therefore further aging the few items of clothing I own, especially when they have no visible dirt and no smellable stench to them.
But now I have a washer and dryer I must pay $1.50 per load for. I ask you, what the crap?
I've already used this system a couple of times, and its killed me to drop three bucks on getting one load done.
But now my sheets need washing. What the crap am I supposed to do?
I don't have 12 quarters! I've been snatching quarters from my sister as it is, and I can't leave her piggie bank high and dry!
WHAT will I do when the price goes up to $2.00?!? It's supposed to, ya know.
This is bull shit.
But now I have a washer and dryer I must pay $1.50 per load for. I ask you, what the crap?
I've already used this system a couple of times, and its killed me to drop three bucks on getting one load done.
But now my sheets need washing. What the crap am I supposed to do?
I don't have 12 quarters! I've been snatching quarters from my sister as it is, and I can't leave her piggie bank high and dry!
WHAT will I do when the price goes up to $2.00?!? It's supposed to, ya know.
This is bull shit.
Flash flu
So I went to my cousin's bridal shower yesterday. It was fun, a little weird just because it's a bridal shower... but fun. All day though, my stomach felt uneasy. I couldn't figure out why, or how to make it go away.. but by the time the sun went down yesterday, my odd feeling turned into full blown flu symptoms. I was achey, definitely running a fever, and super nauseous.
Two Peptobismol pills and 600 milligrams of ibuprofen later, and I was sleeping sound.. only waking up to find myself sweating profusely. Idk what happened, but I'm fine today.. thank goodness.
What I really don't understand is why this has to happen? Yesterday, while basking in my pain and frustration, I was thinking about how we all experience this. All of us get sick and can't touch or hug or kiss anyone for as long as we're in misery. We all have to suffer at a distance from the rest of the world. Is this the universe's way of making us all empathize with the real suffering people in the world? What if the only reason we catch these ass hole bugs that make our world suck for a days on end is so that we open our eyes to the people experiencing much worse pain than us each and every day?
just a thought.
Two Peptobismol pills and 600 milligrams of ibuprofen later, and I was sleeping sound.. only waking up to find myself sweating profusely. Idk what happened, but I'm fine today.. thank goodness.
What I really don't understand is why this has to happen? Yesterday, while basking in my pain and frustration, I was thinking about how we all experience this. All of us get sick and can't touch or hug or kiss anyone for as long as we're in misery. We all have to suffer at a distance from the rest of the world. Is this the universe's way of making us all empathize with the real suffering people in the world? What if the only reason we catch these ass hole bugs that make our world suck for a days on end is so that we open our eyes to the people experiencing much worse pain than us each and every day?
just a thought.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Who moved my cheese?
I realized that little book applies to my life now...
I found my cheese. I didn't think it was possible to find the cheese I found, so I was completely blind to the supply of cheese getting smaller and smaller... When it was gone, I was shocked... I stuck around and hoped the cheese would come back some how. I wanted my cheese back, nothing else was enough.
But I was the mistaken mouse.. I should have gotten my running shoes on and kept looking for cheese, all the while knowing that one day, as long as I kept moving, I would find my cheese again.
We want to savor the good things we come by in life.. But unfortunately, life's good things seem to come in waves. Waiting for another wave to come will only leave you alone and frustrated. You have to keep going and let the waves come to you...
Even though I found the best cheese there is, its gone-and there's nothing I can do about it.
So I can't let myself sit at my cheese hut and wait for cheese to come back, I have to continue my life the way I was before I found my cheese.
When I come across my cheese again, I will stop and enjoy it, while I can...
I found my cheese. I didn't think it was possible to find the cheese I found, so I was completely blind to the supply of cheese getting smaller and smaller... When it was gone, I was shocked... I stuck around and hoped the cheese would come back some how. I wanted my cheese back, nothing else was enough.
But I was the mistaken mouse.. I should have gotten my running shoes on and kept looking for cheese, all the while knowing that one day, as long as I kept moving, I would find my cheese again.
We want to savor the good things we come by in life.. But unfortunately, life's good things seem to come in waves. Waiting for another wave to come will only leave you alone and frustrated. You have to keep going and let the waves come to you...
Even though I found the best cheese there is, its gone-and there's nothing I can do about it.
So I can't let myself sit at my cheese hut and wait for cheese to come back, I have to continue my life the way I was before I found my cheese.
When I come across my cheese again, I will stop and enjoy it, while I can...
Monday, May 31, 2010
I kind of
want to get on facebook again. but when i think about what i could do instead, when i make just the smallest extra effort to entertain myself, I think of great things.. like making tea and getting my journal out or reading. hey, maybe i can draw. i need the practice. who knows?
whatever I end up doing instead of facebook, it still just comes down to the fact that i'm without activity this evening-
which is actually okay with me.
whatever I end up doing instead of facebook, it still just comes down to the fact that i'm without activity this evening-
which is actually okay with me.
Tuesday, May 18, 2010
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