I woke up

crying this morning.
I dreamed I had stage five terminal brain cancer, with only days left to live.
My father took me in a car, on a long car ride up many highways I'd never seen before. We ended up in a vintage town filled with history about maralon manroe and james dean. that kind of place. We came into a diner and sat down. The food was already at our table, my dad had called and ordered ahead. He got me a steak, mashed potatoes and some greens. A meal he knew I hadn't had in years but have always loved. I started crying. It felt like my last meal. Like we only had hours left together.
My dad told me waitress I had brain cancer. She didn't know how to react, I kept crying. I told my dad that there weren't many men in the world like him, that would do this.
When we were done eating I told him I wanted to shave my head. Not because I was about to lose it, because it was too late for treatment, but because I'd always wanted to.
He simply stood up and started out the diner. I followed, saying that it was probably a bad idea.
Then I woke up. Crying.
We are so lucky to be alive.

Take me

with you, ducking to get into our cave we made with my pillow cases and old dresses.
my flashlight can light our way, deeper i crawl behind your feet, wrapped in socks
adventures, we never let them stop. edges of my sheets lead to loving, laid on the ground.
bells and pots and pans. silver spoons and rubie red dirt

I woke up

really early today on accident. But I know I'll be running late as I leave for class. It's just who I am.

There is

one show on television that is actually good. The Big C.
I am an avid show watcher of various programs such as Community, 30 Rock, Weeds, Chelsea Lately and more, but all of them are close to mindless entertainment (30 Rock actually has pretty great writers..) BUT none hail in comparison to The Big C on showtime.
The acting, the writing and the way it's produced is top notch. I haven't deleted a single episode from my DVR b/c I can't bring myself to. Each episode is fantastic.
I seriously advise all of my followers (you know, the three of you haha) to watch this show from start to end. The last episode of the first season just aired Monday night.
It leaves me feeling uplifted but reflective. Motivated and grateful. It's funny, sad, serious and sexy. BLAH i've neeever liked a show so much before (besides maybe Grey's Anatomy but now that show SUCKS)
Go watch.

Here's some

Friedrich Nietzsche quotes i like:

"He that humbleth himself wishes to be exalted."

"There are no facts, only interpretations."

"In large states public education will always be mediocre, for the same reason that in large kitchens the cooking is usually bad."

"We often refuse to accept an idea merely because the way in which it has been expressed is unsympathetic to us."

"It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages."

"God is a thought who makes crooked all that is straight."

"We should consider every day lost on which we have not danced at least once."


mhmmm.

I used

to own one of these little guys. For about a week I brought him to my fourth grade classroom. He was a hit. I don't remember his name or "why" he died. lol. Hedge hogs are cute though. I remember bringing in winter gloves to hold him.

I voted today

for the first time. Waahoo it was easy. I don't know how much I believe in voting/the government/my power in it but hey, you gotta do what you can to have some kinda of voice, i guess. they make it very easy for people, I'd say.

I think

the key to life is destroying fear